In a rut...

Is it possible to distance yourself from your own true feelings?? I have somewhat "trained" myself to be less stressed out and have made it a natural response for myself to be as laid back as possible when I would normally be..... stressing. I don't want to say that I always do that, but I usually do. I think it has become more of a defense mechanism than anything else because I may not want to "deal" with the many things that are thrown my way.

Lately I have been avoiding how overwhelmed I feel with all of the things I am doing. I am: taking 9 hours of graduate prerequisite courses, working full-time as a teacher for three different English classes, trying to maintain an orderly house (this week I have failed), and trying really hard to do all of the things I have committed to. We did not make it to church this past week because I have been so. tired. I am drained. Exhausted. I get mad at myself for not having the time to go running and I feel like everyday I gain another pound. My mind feels like it is going 100 mph because if I'm not worrying about school, I'm worrying about work, or the laundry that needs to be done, or the bills I need to pay. I'm not even sure if I will get into the graduate program and am struggling with one of my classes.

I don't know what I'm going to do next. I feel somewhat trapped by all of these obligations and desperately want a break.

I need God's rejuvenation. I need His hand to hold me and His words of comfort to say it will be alright. Please pray for me. I need rest, comfort, and some down time.